Every so often, I’ll watch a movie. And when I watch a movie as a music fan in general, I have to hear the soundtracks. For me, a great soundtrack could make or break a movie. As predicted, a bad soundtrack, could really piss me off and make me b…
TL;DR: Another New Years Post.What can I say. This year has been hectic. So many things have happened to me to the point where I don’t know what’s going to happen between now and the summer. I have no idea where I’ll be. I hope to be in a better place …
I had been thinking about this for some time, and I’ve asked myself, “Am I doing too much and asking too much of myself? Am I doing the unthinkable? Am I straight up stupid for even trying to go there? Am I too optimistic for trying to wake up people like this?”
I waffled with the following thoughts:
The Black folks who fall into this group range from the solitary Black employee of (insert any company) to college student, or any Black person registered to vote. Hell, as far as I’m concerned, I could be trying to wake up Clarence Thomas or Ben Carson themselves, and we know some of us see them fools look like they’re so asleep that they might as well be flat-lined.
It’s like people are more interested in using Harriet Tubman’s quote, “I freed a thousand slaves. I could have freed a thousand more if only they knew they were slaves.” just to provide themselves with the quick ability to throw away the Black person who just doesn’t “get it”.
But that’s the problem. People are so quick to claim each other as “lost” that it seems like they’re just itching to wash their hands clean of the so called “lost ones” and move on. And that’s not really moving on. That’s wanting to be slathered in validation, which is something I can’t get behind. So still I push on. Again, am I stupid for doing so? Am I opening myself to be hurt? Am I opening myself up to more stress? Am I causing more damage to my health?
I don’t know. But I can say that it is a luxury to put my feelings before anything here. But my health is very important to me, so I’ve got to get it better. In order to do that, I’ve got to get my New Years goals in order as well. I’m going to have to put all of my multitasking skills to the test, that’s for sure. This means less sleep than before, which affects my health.
Do you see what I’m going through, LOL!
Anyway. I’m going to keep going. Nobody said this was going to be extra easy. Oh well. I’m already off to a good start. I’ve got to keep my head up despite how bleak things can look, and I hope you can too.